A funny thing happened on the way to 48

 

A funny thing happened on the way to 48

I’m 48??? How the hell did that happen? Wait, I’m saying something else here, it was important.

So, I am Asperger’s which tends to come with a side order of ADHD. A number of you will know aspies will get hyper fixated on a subject and learn everything they can on it. I love going to the fair when it comes to town, not to go on the rides but to watch how they work, the brilliance of often simple engineering. I could go on for ages about the unique qualities of my cars gearbox and engine (don’t worry I know how boring that is and I won’t).

Somewhere along the way, I have no idea exactly why, I became fascinated with the subject of sex. I think part of it was guys saying how good they were and I wanted to be as good (was years later I found out a lot of them were lying) but even beyond what others said it was a fascinating subject. So, I did what I do, I spent years studying it. I looked at everything I could, from women’s magazines to porn to studying human anatomy to psychologists discussing the topic of how men and women think. I was also so lucky to find a few women who were ok for me to ask some rather explicit questions and get honest answers (did you know around half of women prefer one breast over the other). I haven’t had many girlfriends but I have loved every one of them, still talk to a number of them, they were all special women and I treasure being able to partake in their bodies.

It has only been in the past few years, after starting Modern Gentleman that I took the time to understand the Dom/sub dynamic. I think that’s why I have difficulty with any label like that, because I simply didn’t know or feel it. Even after spending some time talking to people (a number of subs mainly) I still don’t feel I am one despite explanations that are pretty damn close to me. Rather than a label I simply like to say I am me, uniquely me. My style is me.

I love to pleasure a woman to her limits, I find it fascinating to watch, learn, study what gets her going, how far we can go, it’s fascinating. I find she is more than willing to see where she can go too.

Random fact, I have never read or watched 50 shades of grey, just seen a few snippets.

I never really fit into this world. I always felt like an outside observer. Modern gentleman is a mix of my life and observations I have made while watching humans with all their quirks.

I love bringing pleasure to a woman, not just sex. Everything. I love the delight they take in food too. The sassy ones are awesome because they seem to be the ones who take such delight in all sorts of things. I love the ones who’s eyes light up as they go into a random junk store full of “treasures” waiting to be discovered, the smile as they emerge from a yard sale with some random item. The way they leave a great movie talking almost non stop from excitement of what they just saw. Damn I miss that.

Why am I single? Because to see this side of me you have to get to know me. In person I am the quiet one. I am hypersensitive, I see and take in everything around me and it’s not easy, crowds are a horror to me. So much at once, and the noise. It’s a personal hell. I’m totally understanding that a lot aren’t like that. I’m happy to stay home while she goes out, no jealousy because I understand how others need that social contact (very human). I also have limits on time I can spend interacting although with practice I think I can be better at that again.

Hypersensitive. I hate wool, how can people wear it? It’s like sandpaper. And denim, rigid. Nope. A woman’s skin though, its so soft and smooth. Running my hands over her body is so dreamy, I never get sick of it.

So, this is a part of who I am. The Modern Gentleman. I am me.