What the hell happened?: September 2026

Primal

Your scent hits me first, before your skin is near,

A wild signal cutting through the doubt and fear.

No slow dance needed, no polite little plea,

You belong to me.

Forget the reason, forget the gentle art,

We’re tearing down the walls right from the start...

This savage clash when we collide!

Where all the careful manners run and hide.

It's a fever burning deep inside the bone,

We burn perfectly when we are alone!

My grip is iron, pulling you down low,

Every ragged breath is where the wild things grow.

No more whispers now, just the sound of teeth on throat,

This raw vibration is the only note!

Don't ask for soft... don't ask for slow...

Just take this hunger where the wild things go.

TAKE IT! Own the heat, let the edges fray...

We ain't here to whisper, we are here to stay!

Just let it burn... just let it bleed...

FUCK!

One of my jobs I had as an IT person was about a year after someone died, I would delete their files from the servers. I always looked at the the file count in their documents before I did. It was confidential things so I never looked at what was in them, but I would think about all that time that person had spent creating those files and for what? Just me quietly coming along, no ceremony, no looking at the files. Just a simple, purge a year after they die.

Is that the fate of my files too? I guess it is.

10 years today

On this day 10 years ago the Drs kicked my wife out of the hospital. She was still protesting at them as I wheeled her out in a wheelchair down to the car. And then I drove her to the hospice. They had starved her and dehydrated her for 3 days promising her life saving surgery, it never happened.

10 days later I sat beside her as she turned to me, took her last breath and I saw the vein in her neck stop pulsing. That moment is stained on me. I’ll never forget it.

Good girl

You showed up steady, quiet, ready — good girl.

You were patient when the world wasn't — good girl.

You stayed present when presence was hardest — good girl.

You settled into it like you belonged there — good girl.

You said yes before I finished asking — good girl.

You waited, hands folded, eyes soft — good girl.

You remembered every little thing I like — good girl.

You wore what I chose without a word — good girl.

You slowed down when I asked you to — good girl.

You kept your eyes on me when the room got loud — good girl.

You didn't rush the silence — good girl.

You leaned in instead of pulling back — good girl.

You reached for my hand first — good girl.

You softened instead of closing off — good girl.

You let yourself be seen — good girl.

You asked for what you needed — good girl.

You were honest even when it cost you — good girl.

You gave me your nervous and your brave — good girl.

You trusted me enough to let go — good girl.

You made the ordinary feel like something — good girl.

You blushed but you didn't look away — good girl.

You wanted to please and weren't ashamed of it — good girl.

You held still and let the moment last — good girl.

You glowed when you got it right — good girl.

Desire

Desire,

An echo in the darkness of our souls,

A touch that ignites a thousand goals,

A yearning so intense it steals control,

It's a flame that never grows old.

It's a flame, it's a dance,

A magnetic, hypnotic trance,

A fervor that enhances the romance,

Desire, in its powerful stance.

A whisper grows into a fiery roar,

A feeling that leaves us craving more,

A hunger that consumes us to the core,

Desire, it's you I adore.

It's a heartbeat, fast and wild,

A rhythm driving us both wild,

A longing burning like fire,

Desire, you take me higher.

An allure that forever beckons close,

A dream where inhibitions decompose,

With every beat, you're all I need,

Desire, you make me plead.

A passion that only you ignite,

Electric touches in the pale moonlight,

In your arms, I lose my fight,

Desire, you're my appetite.

An urge that never loses fire,

Taking me higher and higher,

In your embrace, I'm complete,

Desire, oh desire, you're my heat.

Closer

Closer.

Don't move. Don't test me.

You're doing so well being patient.

I can hear your heartbeat from here

Louder than anything you're saying.

Hands down.

Eyes up.

You wanted my attention —

now you've got all of it.

Closer.

Not yet — closer.

Every inch you give me, I take slower

You're shaking and you haven't been touched

That's exactly how I like you.

You keep testing how far quiet stretches

Findin' out real quick it doesn't break

I don't need my hands to have you

My voice already knows the way.

— Say my name like you mean it.

— Now say it again, slower.

Closer... closer...

Primal.