unloveable

Making people feel loved, liked, listened to. Helping so many. 

All while unable to accept it for myself. 

I am more broken than they are. 

They don't know

I am trapped in my own hell

I don't know how to get out. 

Monks

 My late wife used to be annoyed at Buddhist monks telling people the way to enlightenment. "How can you show people the way to enlightenment when you have never been at the bottom yourself." She's right, if you have never had to work hard while worrying about how you are going to pay the bills, to eat, to look after the family, worry about the car breaking down.... How can you tell those people not to worry.

Empathy is more powerful than sympathy. I write difficult things sometimes so people feel less alone. I also hope I can help inspire others. I too have sat at the bottom with no visible way out.