I miss looking over and seeing her there.
Empty chairs at empty tables
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3DNaw2-hLg
You know things are messed up when........
You know things are messed up when your experiences are used in training manuals on what not to do.
I hate xmas
Here it is, it's Xmas. Bahh humbug. The family bullshit has already started. Trying to make me go to places I'm not going to. Now they are bringing my daughter into it saying it not fair on her. I stopped all the shit because that wasn't fair on her. Now she has a quiet pleasent day.
The animals are walking through the gardens. They are wrecking them.
Several schools didn't pay their bill which means they won't pay me till February. D
And I'm alone in my bed. :(
Stupid idea Xmas.
The awesome garden I made. And hate
So a few months ago I got stuck in and fixed the courtyard up. It went so well. I got it just how my late wife would have liked it. She would have loved it. Many afternoons would have been spent drinking cups of tea with her friends in it.
It makes me feel guilty, I didn't achieve it when she was alive.
I hate sitting out there feeling the guilt. And alone.
Remember this
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
No one wants to know when you are sad or down.
Keep it to yourself.
Not quite right but still fitting. Don't let it show.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCFqLPwEDU4
Not quite right but still fitting. Don't let it show.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCFqLPwEDU4
Tired and cant sleep
I'm exhausted. Running on way too little sleep.
Feeling low today. Think something is out of balance hormonally. Miss having someone here with me during those times.
My daughter leaves for a holiday in 2 days. She will be gone for a week. She's a pain in the ass but she gives me a purpose. Gonna be a hard week.
Sighs.
Nightmares
It's been over a year. When will the nightmares stop?
On the upside at least I get to see my wife in them sometimes.
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