out of place

I feel out of place tonight. Where life just builds up. All that shit from your past is threatening to fall out of the closet you have been sweeping it into.

I feel like one of those dogs in a shelter, cowering in a corner after a lifetime of crap. Hoping for love but wondering if you care anymore. 

I just want to scream leave me alone at the universe, while secretly hoping someone won't. 

Saw a Facebook pace today of people in loving relationships. I was stunned. I didn't think they existed anymore. It was like a forgotten world. 

My life is not where I want it to be. But I'm lost and I can't find a way out of it. 

Help me, I'm drowning.

Random shit rambling. 

I don't know. I just don't know.