Anger and not showing it

 

When my wife was killed, for a long while my daughter was often angry. I understood why.

As a man, anger is not allowed. I had to be strong and simply carry on as my psyche fell apart.

Sometimes I would drink alcohol, a lot of alcohol, I would listen to loud, angry music so I could quietly sit inside my anger without showing it outwardly.  

Then I would go to bed, wake up the next day and carry on, because sometimes that’s all you can do.

 I’m not one for anger anyways. Never was me, but sometimes the hurt gets strong.